Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Moving on

We're moving. Short-selling our house. It's a long, long story that began last July and if you really want to know I will tell you. But for now, here's a letter to a dear friend of mine that sums up where I'm at rather nicely.

6/23/09

Dear [friend],

I don't know how long this will be so I'm starting up here and will write bigger as needed. =)

We go back and forth between our house and my parents. My parents on weekeneds when Superman works. It's so hard for me to think about moving and leaving. This wasn't the way it was supposed to be, you know? I don't want to end on this note with these regrets. I don't want to be too caught up with grief, though, because then I will miss the blessings that await me. I'm just sad.

Tonight our sweet neighbor came over to tell us how much we will be missed and how he loves us and our girls. They've been like extra grandparents to our family. After he left I just dissolved in tears. Couldn't stop crying for a while. it feels good to be able to cry, though - cleansing. I didn't cry for so long. Depression maybe? I suppose the meds are helping to lift the numbness.

The mail was waiting for me and in it a card from my Grandma, who shared this verse with me, Exodus 33:14 "My presence will go with you and I will give you rest." So I started crying all over again.

Love you and hope all is well with the kids and being a nurse and all that. =)

Always,

beck

2 comments:

  1. Jaye @ canadian-mom.caJune 23, 2009 at 11:06 PM

    Beck, I don't know what's happening but I want you to know that everything will work out. God doesn't always lay out his plans for us to see, but trust that you're on the right path. Good luck with your move and crying is a great release - embrace it.

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  2. I don't really know what's going on with you guys, but we've had some economic upheaval in our lives too (I got laid off last month) and having to short sell, or let the bank have the house back is not out of the question. It's a scary scary time, but I keep telling myself that things happen for a reason and that we'll figure it all out, somehow. Good luck with your move and the next chapter in your life.

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