Thursday, November 1, 2007

Bummer, man.

I've been in a rather dark hole lately. I keep waiting for the feelings of hopelessness to pass as they have so many times before, and for the real me to return but so far - nothing. I have, of course, thought this to DEATH (I wish it would die) and I have, of course, identified several reasons for why things aren't changing this time.

There's a lot more to it than mere sleep deprivation though that certainly does not help.

The stupid (waaaaay too smart) dogs keep breaking the fence so they must be inside 24/7 and closely monitored on all bathroom breaks. This makes me crazy, especially because T-Bird paces and whines and carries on while inside. I am convinced he has a girlfriend somewhere and I hope our neighbors dogs are spayed. If they aren't then I'm sure we'll be seeing little big-headed T-Bird pups eventually.

Kate was a lion for Halloween. Superman was a construction worker. I was a tired mom who worked all day (i.e. myself.) We spent a few hours at the church carnival thing, before coming home to eat Chinese food in bed before crashing from exhaustion. Except I was up a few hours later with the teething baby. Of course.

I'm devouring a book by Mary Roach called Spook. It's good stuff. Whenever I have a completely delicious book to read I have to consciously focus on slowing down my eyes and forcing myself to read slowly. Otherwise I race ahead, greedily sucking down the words as fast as I can, and before I know it the book is done and I haven't really taken the time to enjoy the experience.

My RSS feeds are all screwy again. Some update and some don't and I don't know whether to blame Thunderbird or Blogger.

There's not much else to say.


  1. Beck,I hit a funk around this time of year when it's dark more than it's light. I've found that staying healthy really helps. Eating tons of fruits and veggies (like meat only once every other day), drinking 10 glasses of water a day and exercising. I also take a B Complex vitamin. It aids in emotional and mental well being. Consistent Bible Study is also key. Hope you get on the other side of this soon!

  2. Aww hope you feel better soon. I am right there with you though on the funk thing, am still clawing my way out. So glad you are back, i was missing your posts!

  3. please, pictures of kate the lion! i hope your weekend is relaxing, and you'll be able to catch up on some sleep. =)

  4. Ooh, I've been wanting to read that book, let me know how it is!

  5. T-bird, T-bird, T-bird...We need pictures of the lioness.